Tell me how not to feel mad at someone who just wished to be so childish and aggravate the situation by blending personal issues with businesses.
Yes, I know I should just stay calm and seemed calm and portray like I'm still so tough and that no one can climb over me.
But how to control those busting emotions in you when the same issue with the same attitude kept haunting you over and over again?
I told myself that I should stand up after every falls no matter how afflictive the impact was.
I told myself that no matter how much someone tries to trip you down, all you have to do is stay strong and make the person falls instead. Make the person know that you are not some fragile glass inside, make the person know that no matter what situation he or she puts you in, you still can come out alive.
I told myself that so long I do what I should be doing, it doesn't matter what or how others think of me.
I told myself that maybe, time can heal the wound and that perhaps things will turn out different very soon.
I told myself that what has been done cannot be undone and that I should just let the past flows to the history of life, and not bear any grudges or I will live life, a tired way.
I told myself that maybe those people somehow didn't mean to do it and that they actually have reasons for executing such actions.
I told myself so many many logics, umpteen reasons and excuses.
Yet, eventually I lied to myself.
Time, can never heal the wound in me.
I may forgive someday but I will never forget.
Strength, is not the ultimate winner.
I may be strong on the outside, but within me, I have many expressive feelings that I hoped I could reveal.
Ears, are not what I need.
I may be sharing my thoughts and feelings, but I know no one can ever understand the feeling in me.
Trust, is now something so anomalous to me.
I used to trust, but I got hurt from trusting.
I don't know how long I can withhold this.
I don't know where else to find those strength to manage the everyday attacks of emotions.
Don't tell me that I need to stand firm, to stay strong, to win the war.
Because it's not like I didn't try to.
It's not like I didn't remain calm and tough like what I should.
It's just because it's getting so tiring.
So tiring having to face the same thing over and over again,
control the same emotions over and over again,
remind of what happened over and over again.
Assholes, burst off will you?
时间或许能冲淡一切， 但不能让我忘记岑经受过的伤。
也因为时间， 我才看清了一切， 看清了什么叫虚伪， 什么是虚情假意，
看清了人类不可能会好到不得了，
看清了好人都别有居心。
看清了信任是那么的愚蠢，
看清了演习是人生中不能缺少的脚色，
也看清了像你这种人是人渣中的混蛋。
如果世上真的有因果， 我希望像你这样的混球会得到该有的惩罚。
Yes, I know I should just stay calm and seemed calm and portray like I'm still so tough and that no one can climb over me.
But how to control those busting emotions in you when the same issue with the same attitude kept haunting you over and over again?
I told myself that I should stand up after every falls no matter how afflictive the impact was.
I told myself that no matter how much someone tries to trip you down, all you have to do is stay strong and make the person falls instead. Make the person know that you are not some fragile glass inside, make the person know that no matter what situation he or she puts you in, you still can come out alive.
I told myself that so long I do what I should be doing, it doesn't matter what or how others think of me.
I told myself that maybe, time can heal the wound and that perhaps things will turn out different very soon.
I told myself that what has been done cannot be undone and that I should just let the past flows to the history of life, and not bear any grudges or I will live life, a tired way.
I told myself that maybe those people somehow didn't mean to do it and that they actually have reasons for executing such actions.
I told myself so many many logics, umpteen reasons and excuses.
Yet, eventually I lied to myself.
Time, can never heal the wound in me.
I may forgive someday but I will never forget.
Strength, is not the ultimate winner.
I may be strong on the outside, but within me, I have many expressive feelings that I hoped I could reveal.
Ears, are not what I need.
I may be sharing my thoughts and feelings, but I know no one can ever understand the feeling in me.
Trust, is now something so anomalous to me.
I used to trust, but I got hurt from trusting.
I don't know how long I can withhold this.
I don't know where else to find those strength to manage the everyday attacks of emotions.
Don't tell me that I need to stand firm, to stay strong, to win the war.
Because it's not like I didn't try to.
It's not like I didn't remain calm and tough like what I should.
It's just because it's getting so tiring.
So tiring having to face the same thing over and over again,
control the same emotions over and over again,
remind of what happened over and over again.
Assholes, burst off will you?
时间或许能冲淡一切， 但不能让我忘记岑经受过的伤。
也因为时间， 我才看清了一切， 看清了什么叫虚伪， 什么是虚情假意，
看清了人类不可能会好到不得了，
看清了好人都别有居心。
看清了信任是那么的愚蠢，
看清了演习是人生中不能缺少的脚色，
也看清了像你这种人是人渣中的混蛋。
如果世上真的有因果， 我希望像你这样的混球会得到该有的惩罚。
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