Dear Self,
You're almost 23 and you know you have a mind of your own, a set of principles that you adhere to and a form of respect you cling on because you know you're somewhat abit, indifferent.
Sometimes, your inner self fights with your outlook and you began to either hide away those sorrows to only bury it deep inside the overweight heart or you choose to show the most unapproachable side of you.
You Love the people around you far too much that you never stopped thinking for others more than you spare a thought for yourself. You are unsure of what you desire and what you really want in life because you have experienced far too much disappointments.
You never fail to question yourself all night and needed more self-alone time than anyone else because you feel better when you are walking the streets by yourself, with your own pace.
You're too matured for your own good and this results in you fretting too much.
Experiences, good or bad, have made you better in a way. Most of the time, you learnt through the hard way. People whom you thought you could have trusted, betrayed your trust. Things which you thought could have been simpler, turned devil. You used to not understand life and wondered your purpose and what life could really bring you.
Today, you stand tall fighting, fighting a world of your own.
No matter how destructive or nasty some things may have turned out, no matter who has walked in and out of your life, you still, stand firm and strong and stable.
You understood that people who mattered will know you inside out while people who don't may judge and make things too complicated for everyone.
But you have also reckoned that people who don't matter can continue to judge and you will continue to smile and acknowledge their presence.
You surprised yourself today by taking that first step out to acknowledge a soul. You were great because the soul was taken aback by your smile and acknowledgment. You were great because by doing so, you're trying to show that you have long moved on, and that you have a big heart, unlike the soul.
So keep fighting on and whenever you feel tired and lethargic, thinking that the battle is far too disheartening and unbearable, come back here, to feel affirmed that you're stronger than what you think you are.
Time will heal. The proof of the scar has always remind you of the pain, but it's a significance of the strength you need.
Bear in mind,
"The Best Revenge Is To Smile. " (:
And My Choice is....
Love,
When You're Almost 23.
