Best Friends For A Reason.

Awhile back, my primary school batch decided to create a forum on facebook and eventually I was being added in.

There we were chatting about the days in primary school, reminiscing the many things that we have done together, having so many playback scenes that sparked off after the conversations.

Those were the days when everything was so naive,
Those were my favorite days being a gal of my own,
Those were the days where I found the friends who will stay for the rest of my life.

So here we were chatting, and I happen to find my pri sch bestie, Sharon!

Years passed and all of us went different ways.
Alas, everyone lost contacts and interests of how others are doing.
I mean, its always the efforts of wanting to grow up together isn't it ?

While chatting with Sharon on fb, we eventually decided to meet up and Cindy being my best friend, wanted to meet her too!

Dined at Soup Spoon and continued the unfinished conversations at Working Title Cafe over a cup of Latte.





I must say it feels great to have her back into my life again.

Even though it was after years, we still have so much to talk about, and the frequency still remains intact as it was in the old good days.
I guess, there is always a reason as to why you were best friends to begin with.
There is always a saying that "As you grow older, you will have lesser friends and those who really stay on, are the ones we call true friends."

And I do, am glad that I have a couple of true friends who have been through years, thick and thins with me and I hope for the rest of my life, I will always have them like how I have them now.

Also made a pact with Cin to sweep away our Monday Blues by having a gym date on every Monday!
Love hitting the gym with her because she is always a motivator and I am always so comfortable with her around.






Somtimes, we just need, to go at our own pace, even if it is deemed slower than usual because moving too fast a time, makes you miss out something important in life. 

The Dark Calling Out to You.

Years have passed, time have moved on further than you realised. 

People have changed, things are no longer the same. 

The ones whom you are missing, may never have once thought about you. 

The ones who have left you behind, are now happier than who they once were, as if rejoicing the fact that you were once such a heavy burden. 

They lied. Because time don't heal. Time only lessen those pains and make one forget. 

But when the night falls and you're all alone again, those flashes of past come back like nightmares that leave you in cold sweat, in fear, in pain. 

The fact is you know what has passed should not be held on to.
You know that no matter how much you are reminiscing over certain moments, you know they will never be the same and no one involved will ever come back.

What's broken can never be mend.
Why do people of the past have to make a footprint ?
If you have left long ago, why did you not bring ur presence together with you?
Even though it was years thereafter, the sudden footprints passed by with the collection of the hurts from the same old wounds.
Why do they not heal?
Why do they still hurt as much as how it was right from the start?
What must be done to make you all go away?

"It's okay to look back, but never hold back" 

人生之旅。

什么幸福之旅我不懂。　
提到人生之旅却让我感触良多。　

所谓快乐是什么？　
其实，人要快乐很简单。　
他们说只要你找到你喜欢的人，做你喜欢做的事，自然而然的，　你就会很快乐。
可是，有多少人能够真正的和心爱的人在一起？　
多少人能够真的做自己想要做的事？

人来人往，　多少你以为会一辈子呆在你身边的人，却半途中走了。　
连解释也没有，就这样一了百了，好聚好散。　
多少你以为是你想要做的，　却无意中发现你无能为力，　又或者根本不适合你。　

没错，　人生短暂。　
所以我们不该去在意别人一时无理的举动，　或去理会周围人的批评。　
可是有时你也无法不去在意一些事，　一些人。　
因为他们曾经是你生活中的一部分。　

有的时候，　你认为你做对了一些事，　但在别人的眼里却是错的。　
有的时候，　你以为你应该为你的一举一动，　所作所为而感到骄傲，　但总会有那么一些复杂的感触。　

如果当初你不确定， 就不要随意说可以。
如果不是真实的想法， 就不要直接答应， 让对方抱着希望。
因为一旦这样， 希望会从一人传到另一人， 到了最后， 做不到的时候，　要如何解释？　

有时想着想着，　觉得，　算了。　
反正我的心情永远不被在乎，　我的感受也只不过是多余的。　
只好这样，　把多余的感触收好，　埋伏在触碰不到的心底。　

这样好吗？这样对吗？
每天不断的寻找想要的答案， 却感觉永远也不会找到答案。
可能有些问号是注定要成为一辈子的谜题吧。

A Note to Self.

Dear Self,

You're almost 23 and you know you have a mind of your own, a set of principles that you adhere to and a form of respect you cling on because you know you're somewhat abit, indifferent.

Sometimes, your inner self fights with your outlook and you began to either hide away those sorrows to only bury it deep inside the overweight heart or you choose to show the most unapproachable side of you.
You Love the people around you far too much that you never stopped thinking for others more than you spare a thought for yourself. You are unsure of what you desire and what you really want in life because you have experienced far too much disappointments.

You never fail to question yourself all night and needed more self-alone time than anyone else because you feel better when you are walking the streets by yourself, with your own pace.

You're too matured for your own good and this results in you fretting too much.

Experiences, good or bad, have made you better in a way. Most of the time, you learnt through the hard way. People whom you thought you could have trusted, betrayed your trust. Things which you thought could have been simpler, turned devil. You used to not understand life and wondered your purpose and what life could really bring you.

Today, you stand tall fighting, fighting a world of your own.
No matter how destructive or nasty some things may have turned out, no matter who has walked in and out of your life, you still, stand firm and strong and stable.

You understood that people who mattered will know you inside out while people who don't may judge and make things too complicated for everyone.
But you have also reckoned that people who don't matter can continue to judge and you will continue to smile and acknowledge their presence.

You surprised yourself today by taking that first step out to acknowledge a soul. You were great because the soul was taken aback by your smile and acknowledgment. You were great because by doing so, you're trying to show that you have long moved on, and that you have a big heart, unlike the soul.

So keep fighting on and whenever you feel tired and lethargic, thinking that the battle is far too disheartening and unbearable, come back here, to feel affirmed that you're stronger than what you think you are.

Time will heal. The proof of the scar has always remind you of the pain, but it's a significance of the strength you need.

Bear in mind, "The Best Revenge Is To Smile. " (:


And My Choice is....



Love,
When You're Almost 23. 

A Loss of Direction.

But what is it that really makes me happy?
Unsure if i'm contented with my current life, my current path, the people that makes up my life and the decisions I have made so far.
Am i walking towards the right target/direction?
Will I see what I really want afar if I walk just abit more longer and further?
And Will things go my way thereafter? 

I'm just... so lost. 

真心算什么？

因为我从来都不会说好听的话。
因为一点也不会拍人马匹， 所以不会说你想要听的话。
喜欢就喜欢，　不喜欢也会表现得很不喜欢。
一直以来， 都太坦诚， 太讨厌虚伪， 所以一点也不喜欢和虚伪的人相处。
只要觉得是如此， 就会直接把心里话说出来，
即使会伤害到别人还是想说对他们坦诚是为了他们好。
不是每个人都会用诚心对待你，
只有在乎的人才会和你坦白。

可是原来我错了。
坦诚不会让他们学会什么， 只会让他们觉得你是残酷无情的。
在这世上虚伪的人太多了， 坦诚算什么？
最终胜利得逞的， 不会是坦诚的人而是虚情假意的人。
因为他们懂得何时用虚伪来换取别人对他们的信任。
因为伪装得太好， 所以不是每个人都能看得出他们的虚伪。
你说，到底什么是 - 用真心对待人？

You Understand Yourself Best.

Credits: Tumblr

Oh, don't read too much into it.
It's purely just recognized random thoughts that visit you every now and then when you're alone,
or immersed in a pool of breathless pains.


Anyway, who really bothers or cares?
Everyone is selfish, who would be selfless?
Your pain might be someone's else happiness.
Your happiness might be someone's else grief.
Oh well, Life.. Just Sucks. 

The Reciprocal.

Dollierr Diannee ‏@diannatsl 

＂只要扮演好你的角色，你一定会是主角，不是配角。＂

Dollierr Diannee ‏@diannatsl 

很多时候，有些事你总该放下，有些人你必须遗忘，就像回到当初陌生人的阶段，互不相干。

Dollierr Diannee ‏@diannatsl 

每当我想放下一切，总会有好事发生，让我不知如何做决定。可能有些事是注定的

Dollierr Diannee ‏@diannatsl 

Some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go - Herman Hesse

I'm done with the drama mama of my remaining days in year 2012.
Can't wait for 2013 to come by if ever will the world still be around after 21st December 2012.

Everything that I have gone through have made me become stronger, wiser and more adaptive. 

Life is about reciprocating to each another.
' Do Unto Others What You Want Others to Do Unto You'. 

Whatever they have done to me, I will return double the impact to them.
If you think this means revenge literally, then you are wrong.
Because what I''m gonna do will not inflict any physical wounds to them.
What I'm gonna do may only result in mental torture as and when they start to think about it.

I want them to know that I have feelings too.
I want them to know how unhappy I have been these few months because of what they did.
I want them to go through the same pain and be in my shoes, to know that they shouldnt have treated me that way.

By saying so, it means, i'm gonna live a better life.
A better life than them to prove to them that I can survive even if they go round disrupting my ever well-planned life.
A better life than them to show that karma exist and they can never live their life way better without a conscience of guilt.
A better life than them to thank them for making me who I am today.

The best thing that happened in my life is losing two unworthy friends and not treating them the same way as before.
Without them, I live life so much happier. 

So, why not, just forget, move on and stay happy?
Life revolves around you and your loved ones, not around those who screw up your life. 

Credits: Tumblr

The Race.

With a pair of good shoes, you run.
As fast as you can, as far as you wish. 

My race has come to a stop-point.
After so much debates about how to pace, when to breathe and where to stop,
I finally made a firm decision to go somewhere further, to see the sun rise. 

May good luck fall upon me where I can get to see the sunrise from the direction where I stopped by. 

Free Yourself.

I'm done with all the dramas of my life.
I'm sick of the recurring episodes that play non-stop like a cassette tape where the films go haywire and can never be repaired anymore. 
See me as a loser, an incompetent chap or whatsoever.
Thats's it, I'm sick of those emotions attack and 24/7 observations. 

I'll call the day off, I'm freeing myself.
Goodbye.