七情六欲

Whatever I do, it's always wrong.
It's always never trying, never once appreciated.
What is romance about?
And what is love about?

I can no longer differentiate how it is like to love.
You never fail to say we've been together for very very long, so things like these and that doesn't matter anymore.

Don't you know, those little things that don't matter to you mattered a fair bit to me?
And dont't you know its all these bits and pieces that are tearing everything slowly apart?

On Xmas eve, I feel.. so unappreciated, so despaired.
Or rather, not only today , but i always feel so unappreciated.

You'll never know, you'l never understand.
So nevermind.
Whatever it is, I guess, I need to know, I'm always better off.. alone.

#Emotionless

And sometimes I wish, I didn't have to go through all these... alone. 

Xmas Decor!

This week was a super hectic week as it is the last week I am able to clear my office bound jobs before heading for my overseas business trip this coming Monday, 11 Nov 2013.

Then again, I was in-charge of putting up the xmas decor along with one my colleague.
It was an impromptu decision on Thursday to head out after lunch to Metro to purchase the new xmas tree and decorations. We were tired beat because Sengkang side ran out of the black tree we wanted and so we went over to Farrer park instead to collect the tree.

And yes, we bought a BLACK XMAS TREE! Unique max.



Rushed back to office to place the stuffs and I actually had Basic Theory Test that night and by the time I reached the office, it was already 6.30pm and I was hesitating whether I should be going back home for a bath before heading for the test.
Eventually, colleague and I decided to stay on in office to put up the decor!

We were super Pleased with the tree.

You see why later...


Little Xmas Tree at Conference Room 


Bling Bling Star to hang at the doors


Top of the Xmas tree need not always be a Star isnt it? =D


My FAVOURITE DECOR on the tree has got to be this! Dreamy House. 


Glittered Flowery Ball. 


Golden Birdie with Eggs


Silver Glittered Birdie


Bird Cage


Blissful Xmas Tree that makes us feel happy and blessed!



And the series of dolls that we chose according to the hair length to represent each of us and they are now seated on the top of our table ledge. So cute right?!

Now that the decoration is up, I'm so looking forward to Xmas season again!
HOHOHO~
Whats more, I PASSED my BTT on first attempt that day!!! *throws confetti*

Gulps, before that, I gotta go on the overseas business trip to Guangzhou and then to Dongguan.
See ya folks till when I'm back... :)

Best Friends For A Reason.

Awhile back, my primary school batch decided to create a forum on facebook and eventually I was being added in.

There we were chatting about the days in primary school, reminiscing the many things that we have done together, having so many playback scenes that sparked off after the conversations.

Those were the days when everything was so naive,
Those were my favorite days being a gal of my own,
Those were the days where I found the friends who will stay for the rest of my life.

So here we were chatting, and I happen to find my pri sch bestie, Sharon!

Years passed and all of us went different ways.
Alas, everyone lost contacts and interests of how others are doing.
I mean, its always the efforts of wanting to grow up together isn't it ?

While chatting with Sharon on fb, we eventually decided to meet up and Cindy being my best friend, wanted to meet her too!

Dined at Soup Spoon and continued the unfinished conversations at Working Title Cafe over a cup of Latte.





I must say it feels great to have her back into my life again.

Even though it was after years, we still have so much to talk about, and the frequency still remains intact as it was in the old good days.
I guess, there is always a reason as to why you were best friends to begin with.
There is always a saying that "As you grow older, you will have lesser friends and those who really stay on, are the ones we call true friends."

And I do, am glad that I have a couple of true friends who have been through years, thick and thins with me and I hope for the rest of my life, I will always have them like how I have them now.

Also made a pact with Cin to sweep away our Monday Blues by having a gym date on every Monday!
Love hitting the gym with her because she is always a motivator and I am always so comfortable with her around.






Somtimes, we just need, to go at our own pace, even if it is deemed slower than usual because moving too fast a time, makes you miss out something important in life. 

Frigging Ugly Humans.

Sometimes, the best explanation is not to explain.
The best innocence is to feign ignorance.

The truth is, in order to survive, everyone needs to prepare a loadful of hats and paints a different masquerade.
It all depends on the circumstances you are in, to determine what type of hat to doll yourself up or what type of painting to make yourself reveal as how they wanted you to be.






Truth is, there is no authenticity in the outside world apart from people who truly love you and accept both the beautiful and grisly side of you.

Those whom you think meant well and spoke tip-top remarks, were just who they were, infront of you.
Behind your gracious back, there they were, singing the same tune with others who don't at all understand you.

Humans, were born to be imperfect.
And part of the imperfection was that Humans are Very Ugly.

Because I said, you cannot control what others have to say of you,
Because I said, you cannot expect everyone to ally you.
Because I said, those who know you, understand.

So, never will I be affected on impulse as to what they have got to say or do.
By hearing so from others, it only gives me the courage to move on further, towards a better me.

You need not forgive what I have done,
You need not forget what has happened,
But by maligning people for what they have never once did,
Meant that you are nothing but an ugly piece of shit because in you, there is nothing called a kind heart. 

People will reveal some things on purpose.
We can't blame them.
Because they are far from being matured.
And we can't blame those childishness,
Because they feel totally insecure.

Let them be, just let them be.

Pre-Graduation Shoots + Convocation!

It comes a long way for me to really rejoice over the fact that I have officially graduate from Curtin Singapore as a Bachelor of Commerce Degree holder.

Went to collect the regalia on a Saturday which was the weekend before the convocation itself.
On the very day of collection, I went straight to Serangoon Broadway for my individual photoshoot and towards the afternoon, together with le parents and bf, we headed over to Gardens By The Bay for my pre-graduation outdoor shoots.

Presenting some of my favourites:























Le Bf bought the Curtin graduation bear for me which marks a meaningful symbol as the bear wore the same regalia as me =D It costs SGD50.00 for such a small bear but I guess, some things are more than just monetary terms right?

Was way too overjoyed so deardear took this photo for me which i posted onto instagram :)

"Guys usually go ORD LO, but for me it's gonna be GRADUATE LO! " 



The outdoor shoot ended after taking about 100 photos.
Weather was way too scorching hot for me to withstand it cus I was in crazy attire that is thick and warm.
Thanks to daddy, mummy for being part of the shoot and deardear for being the photographer of the day <3

The Dark Calling Out to You.

Years have passed, time have moved on further than you realised. 

People have changed, things are no longer the same. 

The ones whom you are missing, may never have once thought about you. 

The ones who have left you behind, are now happier than who they once were, as if rejoicing the fact that you were once such a heavy burden. 

They lied. Because time don't heal. Time only lessen those pains and make one forget. 

But when the night falls and you're all alone again, those flashes of past come back like nightmares that leave you in cold sweat, in fear, in pain. 

The fact is you know what has passed should not be held on to.
You know that no matter how much you are reminiscing over certain moments, you know they will never be the same and no one involved will ever come back.

What's broken can never be mend.
Why do people of the past have to make a footprint ?
If you have left long ago, why did you not bring ur presence together with you?
Even though it was years thereafter, the sudden footprints passed by with the collection of the hurts from the same old wounds.
Why do they not heal?
Why do they still hurt as much as how it was right from the start?
What must be done to make you all go away?

"It's okay to look back, but never hold back"