Respect.

What is Respect deemed as to you? 

To me, it should be mutual and regarded as neutral and natural, not something that is induced by someone else upon you or forced at the veins of your throat.

Respect is built up from the countless experiences gained to realize that trust is present and you can count on that somebody.
Respect is not about you performing acts which is only visible to your counterpart at a later time after you have made the final call.
And Respect is earned because you believe.

Apparently, I am just so difficult to please, so difficult to be understood.

It was something so simple, yet so unattainable.

Perhaps I have grown far too much, perhaps I have walked a lot more further.
Perhaps I should reckon the difference of heights and place myself in yours-to-be current location.
Perhaps I should just comment less, be less direct, hide emotions and things might just get better than that.

So what if it hurts?
Who bothers or cares? Who would sympathize your silly emotions?
They just do away with it by classifying all your damn emotions as mood swings.
Brushed your circumstances aside and sweep everything under the carpet till a day it explodes off that shelf and burnt all the books of the same level.

It's okay if no one were to comprehend.
It's alright if whatever I say appeals no sense to anyone
Treat it as I am just ranting rubbish.
Is feeling atrocious right now and ain't in need of queries.