"Cold on the outside, Warm on the Inside"

Friday, 9 March 2012

現在我很幸福



他的手掌有种粗造的体贴
他在我需要时候出现身边
被你伤的那些 崩溃眼泪
多亏他无私的奉陪
那天要是和你真的再见面
谁都不要再提醒那一段从前
有些事不面对 反而安心安全
你无权再动摇我的世界
现在我有了幸福有人照顾应该知足
你不像他从不让我哭
可是我越想投入越是生疏抱的再紧
依旧止不住那流失的温度
现在我不停忙碌不断让步想看清楚
你不像他把我当成全部
可是爱有时善良有时残酷我要如何
爱他像爱你那样义无返顾

那天要是和你真的再见面
我不会提到最后和他的一切
面对不爱的人 我终于谅解了
曾经欲用无言划的句点
现在我有了幸福有人照顾应该知足
你不像他从不让我哭
可是我越想投入越是生疏抱的再紧
依旧止不住那流失的温度
现在我不停忙碌不断让步想看清楚
你不像他把我当成全部
可是爱有时善良有时残酷我要如何
爱他像爱你那样义无返顾

现在我有了幸福有人照顾应该知足
你不像他从不让我哭
可是我越想投入越是生疏抱的再紧
依旧止不住那流失的温度
现在我不停忙碌不断让步想看清楚
你不像他把我当成全部
可是爱有时善良有时残酷我要如何
爱他像爱你那样义无返顾

现在我不停忙碌不断让步想看清楚
你不像他把我当成全部
可是爱有时善良有时残酷我要如何
爱他像爱你那样义无返顾 


Can't stop singing this song in the head.
Alin is really a great singer. 



It doesn't matter because it has been cast aside, left behind.
It doesn't matter because I just wanna get over and done with it.
It doesn't matter because everything will come to an after-phase of negligence eventually. 
As much as it matters because of the fleshy heart that cannot be numb at the moment, 
I know, it shouldn't be made mattered. 

Thursday, 8 March 2012

Burnt Week.

For those who devoted themselves to my blog and left me messages on my phone as to why I didn't update my blog yesterday, thank you for taking time out of your busy schedule to spend a little while at my little corner.

I'm sorry I'm getting a little bit too busy than usual due to packed work schedule as well as school load especially for this semester because I have two very heavy modules that will require me to submit assignments every two weeks from now. Needless to add on, those group projects, presentations, ongoing meet-ups blah blah blah. It's really not a good timing to splurge my days off because of the tight schedules and many of you know, I gotta leave Singapore for Shanghai for a week.

But you wouldn't know how much it meant to me when people whom are important to me are bothering to read about my life. I do monitor my blog statistics everyday because it would be the first page I am seeing when I logged on to blogger. But I wouldn't know your identifications offhand because it's classified into countries as well as users mode of access like android, ipad etc etc. It's incredible how blogger capture my blog readers from countries like United States, Indonesia, Russia, Brazil and Germany as well. Haha.

Anyway, I wouldn't like a publicised blog but I'm glad I have concerned readers. So Thank You All! :)

Oh yes, I am in love with an Iphone application that a friend of mine introduced me to. For those who have yet to download it, you should really go and take a look because it's really kawaii-neh!

It's called Line Naver, in short, Line, which works something like Whatsapp but comes along with cute stickers, emoticons and emojis.

Line Application

Examples of Some of the stickers


I was being an irritant and flooded my bestie colleague with the stickers. 
Alrights, just a short post for today as I'm gonna do the necessary routines and get myself immersed with schoolwork later.

My new group member left us with this quote on our group chat last night which I found meaningful.

"Procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday - Don Marquis" 

Tuesday, 6 March 2012

Reflection.

Don't keep insisting that you were right and the rest of us were at fault when the truth was we tried as much as we could.
Don't keep making it sound like you were big-hearted enough to forgive and forget when you were the one who triggered the after-behaviors of us.
Don't keep blaming us when after such a long period of time, you still have yet to reflect on yourself.
And why can't you just stop talking about it since it has already been forgotten after so long?

In life, it's just predestined that you get to meet certain people.
Out of the influx of people you meet, perhaps only one or two of them become your true friends while the rest of them are just passer-bys in your life and become strangers thereafter.
Definitely, it requires all parties to put in the extra bit of efforts to maintain the friendship and when problems occur or disagreements become the barrier, you reflect first on yourself then on the other parties involved.
If you think you have already put in your best to do what you can, then ask yourself, was it worthwhile at all?
Perhaps it was, and it used to be. But now, it no longer is.

I don't deny I am always busy. Busy with the juggle of double responsibilities as a student and as a working adult. Not to further mention other commitments as well. But never will I forget the existences of my close-to-heart friends. Be it a simple text or phone call, I never fail to let anyone dear to me know they are never forgotten. Where were you when I needed you most?

Years have passed, we have all grown up.
If till today, people are still not realising what they have done and just insist on pushing the blame to others, I term that as ridiculously childish.

I don't deny I used to have this hidden misses of the once fond memories.
I don't deny I felt hurt after all these years of efforts.
And I don't deny you were once important to me.

However...

It's no longer about who was right and who was wrong.
Because it took you so many years to know you have lost me.

It's no longer about giving each other another chance.
Because it's no longer important to me.

Dear You,
Please just move on like how I had.
Don't have to keep reminding yourself about the past by having those emotional posts on your networking profile. If it was ever for other people to know that you have suffered instead of us, then go ahead, tell others how mean we were and it was all our faults and you were generous enough to forgive and forget.
If it was ever for us to see, too bad, because your life has got nothing to do with me ever since the day I stopped putting in efforts.
Just let go, taking it as we were just someone back then as casual friends.
Just let go it's meaningless to say so much after so many years.
Just let it go, because I can assure you, we will never be the same as before anymore.


This will be the last time I will be relating about you.
Though bad dreams may come as always because somewhere still hurts and somewhere still hides those feelings away, I want you to know, I'm still so much happier without a friend like you.


Thanks for once being an awesome buddy and thanks for teaching me the bits and pieces it take to really see through which friendship matters and which doesn't. 


Goodbye for good,
You'll always be a painful part somewhere in me but physically well-forgotten.


No time, no strength to waste my time over rubbish. 

Monday, 5 March 2012

It's Like A Fetish Over Tattoos.

It always seems like everyone is going RARA over this something called tattoos.

Since young, I have always wanted to get one myself too.

Witnessing the pain endured by people while imprinting those tattoos on their body do make me hesitate a little sometimes, but I'm not gonna live my life with any regrets.

Someday, perhaps older, I will get one done definitely.

But definitely I wouldn't want it like these:

So big for what, right?! 

Erms, sorry, I don't need it to be matching. 

Neither do I want my hands to become this colour and look like i'm wearing some printed long sleeves everyday as if I don't bother to change my clothes. 
This look cute la, but I don't need it to be adorable till this extent cus tattoos are supposed to look cool. 


Below two are the ones that look something more like it which I have shortlisted: 

The one on the left is some random blossom flowers and the one on the right is the one I really adored, my zodiac sign - Sagittarius. 

Come to think about it, everyone has different perspectives towards tattoos. 

Some people see it as a form of art that will get them pretty addicted with and from 1 tatoo, it becomes a loadful more.
Some people view tattoos as a form of carved reminder to let them know that the past was cruel enough to have hurt them so much and that they should never let the history repeat itself anymore in the future.
Some people, especially the older generation stereotyped people with tattoos as either ex-jail convicts or current gangsters and stay miles away from them.
To me, too much of something is never good because it will complicate and overdo the effects which was supposed to be related in a simple manner. :)

Sunday, 4 March 2012

Slept to the fullest.



It's nice how you can sleep until you wake up naturally during the weekends.
It's been quite some time since I was able to do so.
Because most of the time, it's either I can't continue sleeping  due to the in-built body clock or its because I got to meet deardear early morning because it was the time he booked out from camp.

Look at how the cat sleeps like a baby. Hehe.
People who know me or slept together with me in the same room before knows that I'm a side sleeper and I always curl myself up. (Just like the picture below on sleeping position, mine is sleeping position A). 

So i slept my fullest over this weekend and it's really awesome!!
I always have this kind of bad after-sleep temper if I don't get to sleep enough or especially when it's a woman thing and you need to get more sleep because no matter how long u sleep, you are still just as tired.

And weekends are always very important to me because it's the only time I can let down my hair and enjoy every single bit of outings, get more sleep and de-stress myself. And it becomes a real different thing when it's back to weekdays because I will be pacing myself like some bullet train.

Some facts about sleeping which I chanced upon while doing some general readings:
  1. Naps are said to improve one's memory, helping you to remember important facts. It also cuts the risk of heart diseases. (I don't nap!) 
  2. People who sleep more than 9hours a day are more likely to develop Parkinson Disease. (HOHOHO! maybe i will kana in the future! ) 
  3. Anything less than 5mins to fall asleep at night means you are sleep-deprived. The ideal is between 10 and 15mins, meaning you are still tired enough to sleep deeply, but not so exhausted you feel sleepy by day. (I usually take more than 15mins to fall asleep even if I feel damn tired, how?) 
16 Things You Didn't Know About Sleep
Via: Psychology Degree

So much about sleeping, it's gonna be Monday again tomorrow which will mean less sleep and faster pace as usual.

Gonna hit Chinatown with mummy later on.

Enjoy your last bit of Sunday peeps! :)

Saturday, 3 March 2012

The Walk Alone.


Tweeting this as I embark my Saturday journey on my own.

Have always been feeling very tired, be it physically or mentally, yet I've never once slowed down to take a good look at myself. 

休息是为了走更长远的路。哪天你累了,停下脚步,好好找回你那流失的力量。

Don't used to go shopping alone because I never once liked the feeling of being alone. But as the years passed, I became very much different, very much needing alot of quiet times like this. Sometimes, you just don't wish to turn to anyone and you just want to walk the town on your own, buy the things you like to cure the feelings within and just keep on walking and walking and walking until your legs wear you down. 

I could have tag along with mummy and daddy for their usual Saturday spree but I chose to be on my own. I could have asked many other friends out for perhaps a lunch or dinner but I still chose to be out there on my own. 

Anyway, when it strikes 12am, it's gonna be our 43 months anniversary.

Happy 43 Months Anniversary Mister Big Piggy! 

Friday, 2 March 2012

HELLO FYFY!

It's Friday and I'm back to the status of not being able to enjoy TGIF again because of night class as per before. It sucks when everyone else are all heading out after work and you are dismissed from work earlier than others only to end up burning your night at some boring school, with boring people and there goes your friday night. 

BOOHOOS, I SERIOUSLY HATE SCHOOL! 

Attended first lesson of my third semester, did my ever first fingerprint attendance which was insanely and ridiculously stupid. Now, the earliest I can ever be released from class is 9.45pm. Kudos to the school new system.

Once again, it's a new class, new people to work with and new environment to adapt all over again. 

I don't really bother if people likes me or hates me to the core, whatever it is, I just wanna get my degree over and done with. 

Audrey darling was so sweet! She tweeted me days back to say that we could head home together after school cus she had a change of timetable and is having lesson on friday from 7pm-10pm as well. Then just before I reported to school today, she tweeted again and said that we will meet at the security guardhouse after class to go home together.

After class, while walking down the stairs, Aud was already standing there waiting for me! Awwss. She even drove me home! 9.45pm end school and i'm home at 10.15pm. How nice right! and she whatsapp to say that it'll always be the case on friday from now on. See how lovely she is! :))

OH YES! I finally completed my set of hello kitty animals which I adored to the max!

They were my motivation every month. As they don't come cheap, I didn't want to buy them all at one go because it wouldn't mean anything to me. Hence, I came up with the plan to reward myself every month for working and studying hard by only restricting myself to purchase one every end month. 

Previously, I don't understand how it feels for those people who go to the arcade to fish for those toys they like. Used to think that was such a silly and money-wasting game. Till now, I still think so but what I'm trying to depict here is the feeling within that no one can understand except yourself. Hard-earned money that don't come easy at all, and you spend it on something you really adore. 



Froffy & Piffy


Froffy the Frog

Fiffy the Fish!

Panfy the Panda!
Caffy The Cat

Maffy The Sheep

Full House!!!
It's Saturday tomorrow and I guess I gotta be on my own again.
Miss my deardear so much :(

Look at how sweet my Mr Phad Thai is:

Waiting for your return big piggy.
Small piggy loves you! <3