The After-Play of Emotions.

Emotions, something that can be tamed, something that can be so fragile.
Sometimes, your emotions take over your mind and you act impulsive.
Sometimes you managed to control those mountains of emotions and let the day go by.
Till the very next day when you are awake, you find yourself struggling with the many different emotions within again.

You know what, life sucks.
Because there are so many things that kept you worrying, so many things that made those brows of yours frown and so many things that you wanted to forget and let go umpteen times but the emotions play you so hard that it just kept coming back. 

How did they manage to change so much, play you out and turned devil on you? 

No reason, no explanation, no words said. 

They just leave you hanging like you never meant a shit to them at all or before,
and what's the most fucked up is they make it look so easy and moved on. 

No one ever taught me the reality of life.
At the age, too young, I was just thrown into the realistic world to walk barefoot, myself. 

Not even a chance to learn how to crawl, and I was forced to stand up straight and walk the journey on my own. 

I've always thought I could bother less, come back stronger and control those attacking emotions well.
But eventually, the sight of everything just disgust me big time. 

Knowing how you need to succumb to the situation,
Surrounded by a world of fakeness and blinded by darkness,
I don't know how long I can have the drive, have the energy and the strength to survive on. 

The aftermath of repeated attacks. 

Rejuvenated.

Woke up at 6am today.
Sent Shaun off for his overseas study trip.
Had Mac for breakfast with the colleague.
Went to work.
Knocked off from work.
Eat, sleep, study.

The routine of life is mundane.
You just need to find ways to get yourself rejuvenated.

Act Deaf So that you don't listen to nonsense and get affected.
Act Dumb So that no matter what, you keep your mouth tight and not express your overwhelming feelings.
and Don't Bother so that you won't feel hurt.



Credits: Tumblr. 

Get Alive With Weekends!

I think I can only enjoy weekends when I am so done with my life as a student.
Otherwise, weekends will always be spent on projects meetup or doing projects at home, or worst still, revising for tests, quizzes and examinations.
Simply can't wait for May 2013 to come when I will graduate happily ever after.

So many things I have thought of which I wanna do after graduation:
1) Focus of my future career path - do something that I am happy with.
2) Learn Driving - not for anyone but for the sake of yours sincerely, me.
3) Sign up for Yoga Class - don't give a damn as to how inflexible my body is now, I had the crave for yoga for donkey years!
4) Pursue my own business idea - always wanted to do something on my own. Time to crack the brain for juicy creative cells!
5) Attend language classes - you must be thinking, huh, still not done with studying? hehe. life is always about learning, I wanna learn more about Korean, Japanese and the super cool Cantonese.
6) Travel to countries - Shortgetaway and a long-distance trip will be good.
7) Organize more family and friends gathering - which is something that I really look forward to because I wanna spend more time with my loved ones.
8) Plan more about our future - Yes, our future darling :)
9) Go for themed photoshoots - capturing moments when you are young is really important.
10) Go for more fleas! - definitely need more time to sell away the numerous clothes I have.

And watching Michelle Obama's speech on Youtube is indeed super inspiring.
The best part was when she mentioned:
" Success is not about how much money you earned but how u make a difference to people's lives. " 

That's so true. So what if you have all the money in the world but you have no friends around or people do not at all recognize you by what you have done in your entire life.

So yes, we are all gonna work hard for the prospect our our future so that as we aged, we aged with experience and satisfaction. :)

On a random note, went for Dim Sum today with Shaun who is leaving us for his overseas study for 3 years.
It's always saddening to send people off, especially when they are people who really matter.

Went Lor 16 126 Dimsum @ Geylang.
It's my first time there and I really like the dimsum there!
We had quite abit of stuff like century egg meat congee, claypot duck congee, siew mai, hak kau, chee cheong fun with prawn & xiao long bao.

Total bill amounted to SGD43.90 for three of us.

Talking about dim sum, I am going to Hong Kong in November with Daddy and Mummy Tay! =D
Can't wait to shop and have my dim sum there!





Dearest, Shaun & Me. 

After which, dearest boy and I headed to Takashimaya to hunt for mooncakes!
Bought the four seasons durian mooncake for grandma and she was overjoyed!

Did quite abit of shopping too!
TA DA! My new killer wedges from Charles & Keith that is awesomely pretty! <3




With love <3


And how's me looking with my new moustache? Hehe. 


Before I forget, a couple of days back, I received this all the way from Taiwan! Thanks to my taiwan bestie, Glenn for sending this to me via courier, knowing that I am super in love with this mouthless cat.
I do have an identical one from Singapore Macdonalds. But the one from Taiwan is so much prettier as it came with a customized Mac Box!
Singapore Mac, please re-look at your presentation and make it abit more ATAS can?

And not to worry about me, I am very much feeling better from the sidetracks.
In time to go, I always grow stronger. =P
HAPPY WEEKENDS!

Quiet Time Alone.

"Sometimes, what we need is some quiet time alone, to bring back the once livelier person in you." 

And me?
I spent the few hours alone, walking aimlessly,
trying to fit a good reason why I felt that way and what has impacted me so much. 

Eventually, answers don't come appearing vividly.
All I know is somewhere, somehow, hurts that bad. 

My therapy of spending time, alone. 

Free Yourself.

I'm done with all the dramas of my life.
I'm sick of the recurring episodes that play non-stop like a cassette tape where the films go haywire and can never be repaired anymore. 
See me as a loser, an incompetent chap or whatsoever.
Thats's it, I'm sick of those emotions attack and 24/7 observations. 

I'll call the day off, I'm freeing myself.
Goodbye. 

Assholes Don't Die, They Linger Around.

Tell me how not to feel mad at someone who just wished to be so childish and aggravate the situation by blending personal issues with businesses.
Yes, I know I should just stay calm and seemed calm and portray like I'm still so tough and that no one can climb over me.
But how to control those busting emotions in you when the same issue with the same attitude kept haunting you over and over again?

I told myself  that I should stand up after every falls no matter how afflictive the impact was.
I told myself that no matter how much someone tries to trip you down, all you have to do is stay strong and make the person falls instead. Make the person know that you are not some fragile glass inside, make the person know that no matter what situation he or she puts you in, you still can come out alive.
I told myself that so long I do what I should be doing, it doesn't matter what or how others think of me.
I told myself that maybe, time can heal the wound and that perhaps things will turn out different very soon.
I told myself that what has been done cannot be undone and that I should just let the past flows to the history  of life, and not bear any grudges or I will live life, a tired way.
I told myself that maybe those people somehow didn't mean to do it and that they actually have reasons for executing such actions.
I told myself so many many logics, umpteen reasons and excuses.
Yet, eventually I lied to myself.

Time, can never heal the wound in me.
I may forgive someday but I will never forget.
Strength, is not the ultimate winner.
I may be strong on the outside, but within me, I have many expressive feelings that I hoped I could reveal.
Ears, are not what I need.
I may be sharing my thoughts and feelings, but I know no one can ever understand the feeling in me.
Trust, is now something so anomalous to me.
I used to trust, but I got hurt from trusting.

I don't know how long I can withhold this.
I don't know where else to find those strength to manage the everyday attacks of emotions.

Don't tell me that I need to stand firm, to stay strong, to win the war.
Because it's not like I didn't try to.
It's not like I didn't remain calm and tough like what I should.
It's just because it's getting so tiring.
So tiring having to face the same thing over and over again,
control the same emotions over and over again,
remind of what happened over and over again.

Assholes, burst off will you?

时间或许能冲淡一切， 但不能让我忘记岑经受过的伤。
也因为时间， 我才看清了一切， 看清了什么叫虚伪， 什么是虚情假意，
看清了人类不可能会好到不得了，
看清了好人都别有居心。
看清了信任是那么的愚蠢，
看清了演习是人生中不能缺少的脚色，
也看清了像你这种人是人渣中的混蛋。
如果世上真的有因果， 我希望像你这样的混球会得到该有的惩罚。 

Cafe Brio - Grand Copthorne Waterfront

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my Lynn babe and Sofia Sayang on 9 September 2012!

I think the bestest thing that happened throughout my Fullerton's part-time job years back, was meeting Lynn and Sarah babe.
No doubt we never had the chance to meet real frequently as we all have our own commitments, they will always be in my mind and heart wherever I go.
I will never forget those days when they guided me through my Fullerton journey as well.
Such great colleagues back then and good friends now. :)

And so it was Lynn's bdae celebration @ Grand Copthorne Waterfront - Cafe Brio.
Went to this place several times already.
Once was with Lynn babe too, another was last year's xmas with family & love and third was just yesterday.

Instead of the usual international buffet, they now have seafood buffet.
It was fully booked yesterday because there were some groupon deals (1 for 1) going on.
We had a table booked for 13pax and was the longest table ever.

Met up with my bestie, Vince @ Orchard and went to Lucky Plaza to take bus 123.
Eventually, bus 123 took like donkey years to come and the free shuttle bus to Great World City came instead so we hopped on to the free shuttle instead.

Walked for another 5mins and reached the Grand Copthorne Waterfront.

Cafe Brio
Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel
392 Havelock Road 169663

Thanks to connections, we have had a 20% discount :)



Some pictures of the buffet line / spread:












The Japanese portion was my favourite with the sushi and my salmon sashimi!!







To top it off, these king prawns are really fresh and delicious.
The moment the chef placed it on the server, it was all gone within 5 minutes.



Lynn babe's cold dishes to start with:



Spicy Prawn Mee:



BBQ / Teppanyaki:





My Sarah Babe & Rahman!



Ending off the post with my bestie Vince :)

Trust.

Trust is like an eraser. It gets smaller & smaller after every mistakes made. 

Something that is so fragile and gets toppled easily. 

Credits: Tumblr.

ARDENT'S Cafebar!

It was Ting's last day at work on friday and we had a mini farewell for her while in the office.

The previous day I was on half-day leave and I got to meet up with my dearest Swee!
Feels great seeing her as always and never the need to hide anything from her.
Hope little Swee will grow up healthy and not torture his mummy's sleep at night!
I Love them both! :)

So I came to work on the friday morning with this on my table:



Haha, it's great to have such 'secret-admirer' who makes your day beautiful with little gestures like this.

Then came more, this time round, not anonymous.
Thanks Ting for the farewell gift!
You have always been a great help all these while.
Without you, i think i will just die in my multiple reports generation process.
Urm, yes, she is giving a tad too much stuffs.
That day was like teacher's day, we kept receiving this and that. Haha.



Made a pact with my two babies at work to have a dinner date together.
And thanks to Meiyun's suggestion, we had a great place for dinner!

Ardent's Cafebar was the place we had dinner. Not sure if reservations are compulsory, but we did make a reservations for three beforehand to secure the seats as the place ain't very big to start with.

Upon stepping into the cafe, it gave me a nice modern vintage feel with its floral and garden setting.



ARDENT'S CAFEBAR
Address: 80 Neil Road
Nearest MRT Station: Outram







Food Ting Ordered: Mushroom Bacon Aglio Olio
Food Meiyun Ordered: Cheese burger with fries 
Food that I Ordered: Egg Benedict (They have all-day breakfast! YIPPEE!!)

Beverages Ordered: Passion Fruit Margarita, Strawberry Margarita & Mojito 

Desserts:  Crème brûlée & Chocolate Lava Cake with Hazelnut Ice-Cream. 

Overall, food was awesome. I guess for people with a bigger appetite, you may need to order more stuffs because the portion is not as huge as other restaurants or cafes that serve in American-style. But it was just nice for me as I don't have a big appetite and am the type whereby a main dish can fulfil my meal.

My favourite of the night was the Crème brûlée! 
I shall try to bake it someday! :P

Total Bill amounted to around 130SGD for 3 pax.

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Adorable how they classified non-alcoholics under virgins category and we were making fun of Ting like how she should have chose something from there because she took a tad too long to drink finish her Strawberry Margarita which was not strong in alcohol content to begin with. =D



That's me looking fine & good at the cafe-bar, thanks to Meiyun for the random shot. 


Outdoor shot with Meiyun, my baby no. 1. 


Outdoor shot with Ting, my baby no. 2. (I will be left with one baby after she leaves ) 



An overall shot with Ting. 



And not forgetting, with Mei Yun. :) 



Love this shot with the vintage swing! I always have a fetish for swings at cafe! 



A last shot before we ended the night. 



And Ting mentioned that this look like a bed scene. Haha, goodnight! =D




Loving my new fishtail floral dress that night. Thanks to Threadtheory , my virgin buy from them. (:



Shall end of the post with myself looking neat from my bunned hair.
Goodnight folks and have a Happy Monday! :)