Hold On to Strength.

A very nice oldies that relates very much to couples who have walked several miles and years together.
Till hairs turned grey and all became too feeble to walk.
Obstacles that were gone through and happiness that were shared, within the two.

Makes me have a fetish over how I will look like say 40 to 50 years from now, how me and my husband-to-be will have gone through the many things together and yet still as loving, still holding hands together.

And this song makes me real touched, with the presence of grandpa in mind again.
I do not know why.
But everytime when I needed some strength to move on, I never fail to think of the one I respected the most in my entire life.
So what if he doesnt remember me anymore, so what if we are now worlds apart?
I know, somewhere, somehow, you know, I really miss you so much. :)

Becoming Wiser.

＂虚情假意的人可能可以在短时间内取得胜利，

但他们仍然很可悲。

因为裁开面具后的他们是每个人讨厌的对象。

即使在短时间内获得一切，到了最后，

由始至终他们还是没有得到真实的友情，

真实的心，

永永远远都是独自一人。＂

"Sometimes, giving up is easier than constantly trying only to the same outcome over and over again. It's not that you are a loser, but it's because you have sort out your thoughts and for once, think for yourself and do what is best for yourself."

真的累了。。。

有些人， 永远都会不择手段， 总是只会伤害别人。
有些事， 永远都不可能解决， 让牵连的人好疲惫。

走到这里就够了。
每天， 都不断地告诉自己要坚强， 要勇敢。
因为没人了解， 所以只好把疲惫的心情收拾好， 不让在乎的人看穿。
因为还想为了自己， 为了身边爱我和重视我的人， 所以还想勇敢的撑下去。

白天就和奸人征战，夜深冷静的时候就收拾好无谓的心情，找回自我， 找回需要的力量。

但到了生死关头， 我仍然输了。
不是输在对付不了奸人， 而是输给了自己。
因为再也不想努力了， 再也不想斗争了。
因为真的累了， 不想再玩这种没有结果的游戏了。

可不以可就停下来， 一下下就好， 一下下就够了。。。

Porn's , Thai Restaurant.

From a customer to a penpal to a friend, I finally got the chance to meet up with my favourite blogshop owner, Reb love (:

We met at Bugis and head to Porn's for dinner!
Just in case you go RARA over the name, it is actually named after our local celebrity, Pornsak, who is a Thai.
And yes, this is a concept of a Thai Restaurant.

Porn's 
28 Liang Seah Street, Singapore 189049
Tel: 6337 5535

Was my first visit here but it was Reb's second.
So we ordered something that she has yet to try.

For the two of us, we had Thai Chicken Tom Yum Soup (What is Thai food without Tom Yun Soup right?) ,  Minced Meat with Basil and Thai-styled Tofu.

Overall, I think the food is just so-so.
Nothing much appealing or unique compared to other Thai restaurants but it's definitely worth a first try.

Total Bill amounted to about SGD31.00 for two pax.

After which, we proceeded on to 'Ah Chew Desserts' which was just across the street.
No matter how full we are, there are always room for desserts =D
Reb love got Mango Sago with ice cream while I got the watermelon sago.
I have always loved their Mango Sago and Honeydew Sago and Durian Sago.
Must be wondering, what? All Sago?! Haha, yes, cus the rest of the desserts array belong to that of traditional category  like glutinous rice balls etc which aint my cup of tea.



Hello to the honourable blogshop owner, Reb! :)







Surprisingly, we got so many common topics to talk under the sun.
To be honest, I am very much not someone that sociable who will go around blabbering non-stop if you put me in an enclosed room with just me and a group of strangers.
I am someone who needs time to adapt to the environment and to the people around me and I wouldn't expose my friendliness until I feel comfortable.
Hence, people who don't know me always feel that I am very unapproachable and unfriendly at first sight.
But when you get to know me better, I am actually the exact opposite of what you really thought I was initially.

So I am really glad to have met a new friend here. :)

On a side note, below is my new buy.
It's Urmms...... A tad ugly but.... the ugliness is what makes it adorable isnt it?

My boy couldn't stop saying how ugly it is, so mean right?
But yes, "Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder".
Haha, still, if you ask me why I have bought this ugly thing, I would hesitate for awhile and still have no answer for you. LOL!

So here you go, I call this ugly love "Ahlolo" because I wanted to call it Uglo but I suddenly thought of Aglio Olio then I merged Ah with the lo and called it Ahlolo =D

Please meet Ahlolo! * Waves Frantically!*




And gosh, upcoming December will be a hectic month for me.
Then again, since when has EOY been easy right?



Haven't got the chance to upload my photos for my HK trip with daddy and mummy,
Will be right back soon! :)

You Understand Yourself Best.

Credits: Tumblr

Oh, don't read too much into it.
It's purely just recognized random thoughts that visit you every now and then when you're alone,
or immersed in a pool of breathless pains.


Anyway, who really bothers or cares?
Everyone is selfish, who would be selfless?
Your pain might be someone's else happiness.
Your happiness might be someone's else grief.
Oh well, Life.. Just Sucks. 

A Step Closer.

“Happiness is like a butterfly.
The more you chase it, the more it eludes you.
But if you turn your attention to other things,
It comes and sits softly on your shoulder.
- Henry David Thoreau”

Credits: Tumblr

And I Guessed, I Will..
Figure Out What I Really Possessed And Ought To Achieve In The Near Future. 

Every Stops For A Breather Is A Step Closer To The Begets of Strength.

Yellow Sunshine.

Credits: Tumblr

I always wish that after every rain showers,
the sun will appear vividly depicting that the better has come.
And I wished that the sunshine will just keep blinding the eyes so that no more tears can be formed. 

I usually wear blue on a Monday in line with the supra Monday Blues that all working adults are experiencing with.
The refusal to wake up, to drag your heavy feet to work, especially after a long break from weekends.
But that day was a two-day work week for me because of my exam leaves plus a public holiday declared in Singapore.
So I decided to go with some bubbly colours to light up my mood.
Sunshine yellow was the colour I chose!
To be honest, I do not have much yellow outfits.
This is probably the only piece or second piece that I have in yellow.
I seldom wear yellow because I thought I look awful in yellow and tat yellow is a colour that is a tad too striking and i didnt want people to be staring at my outfit while i'm walking on the streets.
But I definitely feel so great with this yellow bubbly dress cus it's plainjane that makes it not complicated. 

Yellow dress from: Kizzofgoddess
Flowery Bracelet: Forever21

Little Part 1 Cafe.

Almost died travelling to Upper Thomson Road from my workplace because of the relatively inconvenient accessibility to MRT station as well as the availability of buses.
Furthermore, it ain't easy to get urself squeezed on to buses or trains at peak hours after work on a Friday.
But it was all worth it cus I was meeting one of my bestie, Ning! :)

Her workplace was near Upper Thomson Road and so being a nice and understanding friend, I decided to make my way down from urban to rural area . Exaggerating I know. HEHE.

A day before we decided to have dinner at 'Little Part 1' Cafe.


Little Part 1 Cafe
Address: 15 Jasmine Road, 576584
Phone: 6451 7553
Hours:
Sun, Sat 12pm-12am
Mon-Fri 12-3pm, 5:30-10pm

Had heard some reviews from my friends that it's not bad so I have decided to give it a try.

The Bar counter 


The Menu that literally reminded me that I am super hungry



My Banger & Mash. 



Shepherd's Pie for Ning! 



Happy Gurl! 



Hello Bestie (: 



Cider is love!











Overall, I guess it was a place that you can go for a long quiet sit-down with a friend.
If you are gonna be with a big group, I guess this place wouldn't very much sit big groups cus its a small-style cafe.
Food wise, I wouldn't say its super fantastic but well, reasonable and affordable.
A bit inaccessible but well, cafes are always situated at ulu areas.
I must say I really like the Cider (Fruit Beer) but yet in Singapore, it's a tad too expensive.
It costs SGD15.00 for a bottle at Little Part 1.
Heard from my friend that if you are in England, the same bottle would prolly cost you only SGD2.00.
Oh yes, Singapore... why everything so expensive?!

Total bill amounted to about SGD60.00 for us two pax. (:

More cafes to try out soon!
And WHOOSH, it's exams week for the next two weeks and one day after my final paper, I'm going to Hong Kong with the Mr and Mrs head of the family =D All EGGCITED!

The Reciprocal.

Dollierr Diannee ‏@diannatsl 

＂只要扮演好你的角色，你一定会是主角，不是配角。＂

Dollierr Diannee ‏@diannatsl 

很多时候，有些事你总该放下，有些人你必须遗忘，就像回到当初陌生人的阶段，互不相干。

Dollierr Diannee ‏@diannatsl 

每当我想放下一切，总会有好事发生，让我不知如何做决定。可能有些事是注定的

Dollierr Diannee ‏@diannatsl 

Some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go - Herman Hesse

I'm done with the drama mama of my remaining days in year 2012.
Can't wait for 2013 to come by if ever will the world still be around after 21st December 2012.

Everything that I have gone through have made me become stronger, wiser and more adaptive. 

Life is about reciprocating to each another.
' Do Unto Others What You Want Others to Do Unto You'. 

Whatever they have done to me, I will return double the impact to them.
If you think this means revenge literally, then you are wrong.
Because what I''m gonna do will not inflict any physical wounds to them.
What I'm gonna do may only result in mental torture as and when they start to think about it.

I want them to know that I have feelings too.
I want them to know how unhappy I have been these few months because of what they did.
I want them to go through the same pain and be in my shoes, to know that they shouldnt have treated me that way.

By saying so, it means, i'm gonna live a better life.
A better life than them to prove to them that I can survive even if they go round disrupting my ever well-planned life.
A better life than them to show that karma exist and they can never live their life way better without a conscience of guilt.
A better life than them to thank them for making me who I am today.

The best thing that happened in my life is losing two unworthy friends and not treating them the same way as before.
Without them, I live life so much happier. 

So, why not, just forget, move on and stay happy?
Life revolves around you and your loved ones, not around those who screw up your life. 

Credits: Tumblr

The Race.

With a pair of good shoes, you run.
As fast as you can, as far as you wish. 

My race has come to a stop-point.
After so much debates about how to pace, when to breathe and where to stop,
I finally made a firm decision to go somewhere further, to see the sun rise. 

May good luck fall upon me where I can get to see the sunrise from the direction where I stopped by. 

Flea @ SCAPE , Orchard - 6 October 2012.

Hi loves! I am going for flea tomorrow, 6 October 2012, Saturday at SCAPE orchard which is just beside cinneleisure. It will be held at level 4 of SCAPE Terrace. Please come to support! I have many new clothings that I have never worn before plus many gorgeous accessories like fashion belts, fashion long and short necklaces , bracelets and many more. Hope to see you all there!

The After-Play of Emotions.

Emotions, something that can be tamed, something that can be so fragile.
Sometimes, your emotions take over your mind and you act impulsive.
Sometimes you managed to control those mountains of emotions and let the day go by.
Till the very next day when you are awake, you find yourself struggling with the many different emotions within again.

You know what, life sucks.
Because there are so many things that kept you worrying, so many things that made those brows of yours frown and so many things that you wanted to forget and let go umpteen times but the emotions play you so hard that it just kept coming back. 

How did they manage to change so much, play you out and turned devil on you? 

No reason, no explanation, no words said. 

They just leave you hanging like you never meant a shit to them at all or before,
and what's the most fucked up is they make it look so easy and moved on. 

No one ever taught me the reality of life.
At the age, too young, I was just thrown into the realistic world to walk barefoot, myself. 

Not even a chance to learn how to crawl, and I was forced to stand up straight and walk the journey on my own. 

I've always thought I could bother less, come back stronger and control those attacking emotions well.
But eventually, the sight of everything just disgust me big time. 

Knowing how you need to succumb to the situation,
Surrounded by a world of fakeness and blinded by darkness,
I don't know how long I can have the drive, have the energy and the strength to survive on. 

The aftermath of repeated attacks. 

Rejuvenated.

Woke up at 6am today.
Sent Shaun off for his overseas study trip.
Had Mac for breakfast with the colleague.
Went to work.
Knocked off from work.
Eat, sleep, study.

The routine of life is mundane.
You just need to find ways to get yourself rejuvenated.

Act Deaf So that you don't listen to nonsense and get affected.
Act Dumb So that no matter what, you keep your mouth tight and not express your overwhelming feelings.
and Don't Bother so that you won't feel hurt.



Credits: Tumblr. 

Get Alive With Weekends!

I think I can only enjoy weekends when I am so done with my life as a student.
Otherwise, weekends will always be spent on projects meetup or doing projects at home, or worst still, revising for tests, quizzes and examinations.
Simply can't wait for May 2013 to come when I will graduate happily ever after.

So many things I have thought of which I wanna do after graduation:
1) Focus of my future career path - do something that I am happy with.
2) Learn Driving - not for anyone but for the sake of yours sincerely, me.
3) Sign up for Yoga Class - don't give a damn as to how inflexible my body is now, I had the crave for yoga for donkey years!
4) Pursue my own business idea - always wanted to do something on my own. Time to crack the brain for juicy creative cells!
5) Attend language classes - you must be thinking, huh, still not done with studying? hehe. life is always about learning, I wanna learn more about Korean, Japanese and the super cool Cantonese.
6) Travel to countries - Shortgetaway and a long-distance trip will be good.
7) Organize more family and friends gathering - which is something that I really look forward to because I wanna spend more time with my loved ones.
8) Plan more about our future - Yes, our future darling :)
9) Go for themed photoshoots - capturing moments when you are young is really important.
10) Go for more fleas! - definitely need more time to sell away the numerous clothes I have.

And watching Michelle Obama's speech on Youtube is indeed super inspiring.
The best part was when she mentioned:
" Success is not about how much money you earned but how u make a difference to people's lives. " 

That's so true. So what if you have all the money in the world but you have no friends around or people do not at all recognize you by what you have done in your entire life.

So yes, we are all gonna work hard for the prospect our our future so that as we aged, we aged with experience and satisfaction. :)

On a random note, went for Dim Sum today with Shaun who is leaving us for his overseas study for 3 years.
It's always saddening to send people off, especially when they are people who really matter.

Went Lor 16 126 Dimsum @ Geylang.
It's my first time there and I really like the dimsum there!
We had quite abit of stuff like century egg meat congee, claypot duck congee, siew mai, hak kau, chee cheong fun with prawn & xiao long bao.

Total bill amounted to SGD43.90 for three of us.

Talking about dim sum, I am going to Hong Kong in November with Daddy and Mummy Tay! =D
Can't wait to shop and have my dim sum there!





Dearest, Shaun & Me. 

After which, dearest boy and I headed to Takashimaya to hunt for mooncakes!
Bought the four seasons durian mooncake for grandma and she was overjoyed!

Did quite abit of shopping too!
TA DA! My new killer wedges from Charles & Keith that is awesomely pretty! <3




With love <3


And how's me looking with my new moustache? Hehe. 


Before I forget, a couple of days back, I received this all the way from Taiwan! Thanks to my taiwan bestie, Glenn for sending this to me via courier, knowing that I am super in love with this mouthless cat.
I do have an identical one from Singapore Macdonalds. But the one from Taiwan is so much prettier as it came with a customized Mac Box!
Singapore Mac, please re-look at your presentation and make it abit more ATAS can?

And not to worry about me, I am very much feeling better from the sidetracks.
In time to go, I always grow stronger. =P
HAPPY WEEKENDS!

Quiet Time Alone.

"Sometimes, what we need is some quiet time alone, to bring back the once livelier person in you." 

And me?
I spent the few hours alone, walking aimlessly,
trying to fit a good reason why I felt that way and what has impacted me so much. 

Eventually, answers don't come appearing vividly.
All I know is somewhere, somehow, hurts that bad. 

My therapy of spending time, alone. 

Free Yourself.

I'm done with all the dramas of my life.
I'm sick of the recurring episodes that play non-stop like a cassette tape where the films go haywire and can never be repaired anymore. 
See me as a loser, an incompetent chap or whatsoever.
Thats's it, I'm sick of those emotions attack and 24/7 observations. 

I'll call the day off, I'm freeing myself.
Goodbye. 

Assholes Don't Die, They Linger Around.

Tell me how not to feel mad at someone who just wished to be so childish and aggravate the situation by blending personal issues with businesses.
Yes, I know I should just stay calm and seemed calm and portray like I'm still so tough and that no one can climb over me.
But how to control those busting emotions in you when the same issue with the same attitude kept haunting you over and over again?

I told myself  that I should stand up after every falls no matter how afflictive the impact was.
I told myself that no matter how much someone tries to trip you down, all you have to do is stay strong and make the person falls instead. Make the person know that you are not some fragile glass inside, make the person know that no matter what situation he or she puts you in, you still can come out alive.
I told myself that so long I do what I should be doing, it doesn't matter what or how others think of me.
I told myself that maybe, time can heal the wound and that perhaps things will turn out different very soon.
I told myself that what has been done cannot be undone and that I should just let the past flows to the history  of life, and not bear any grudges or I will live life, a tired way.
I told myself that maybe those people somehow didn't mean to do it and that they actually have reasons for executing such actions.
I told myself so many many logics, umpteen reasons and excuses.
Yet, eventually I lied to myself.

Time, can never heal the wound in me.
I may forgive someday but I will never forget.
Strength, is not the ultimate winner.
I may be strong on the outside, but within me, I have many expressive feelings that I hoped I could reveal.
Ears, are not what I need.
I may be sharing my thoughts and feelings, but I know no one can ever understand the feeling in me.
Trust, is now something so anomalous to me.
I used to trust, but I got hurt from trusting.

I don't know how long I can withhold this.
I don't know where else to find those strength to manage the everyday attacks of emotions.

Don't tell me that I need to stand firm, to stay strong, to win the war.
Because it's not like I didn't try to.
It's not like I didn't remain calm and tough like what I should.
It's just because it's getting so tiring.
So tiring having to face the same thing over and over again,
control the same emotions over and over again,
remind of what happened over and over again.

Assholes, burst off will you?

时间或许能冲淡一切， 但不能让我忘记岑经受过的伤。
也因为时间， 我才看清了一切， 看清了什么叫虚伪， 什么是虚情假意，
看清了人类不可能会好到不得了，
看清了好人都别有居心。
看清了信任是那么的愚蠢，
看清了演习是人生中不能缺少的脚色，
也看清了像你这种人是人渣中的混蛋。
如果世上真的有因果， 我希望像你这样的混球会得到该有的惩罚。 

Cafe Brio - Grand Copthorne Waterfront

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my Lynn babe and Sofia Sayang on 9 September 2012!

I think the bestest thing that happened throughout my Fullerton's part-time job years back, was meeting Lynn and Sarah babe.
No doubt we never had the chance to meet real frequently as we all have our own commitments, they will always be in my mind and heart wherever I go.
I will never forget those days when they guided me through my Fullerton journey as well.
Such great colleagues back then and good friends now. :)

And so it was Lynn's bdae celebration @ Grand Copthorne Waterfront - Cafe Brio.
Went to this place several times already.
Once was with Lynn babe too, another was last year's xmas with family & love and third was just yesterday.

Instead of the usual international buffet, they now have seafood buffet.
It was fully booked yesterday because there were some groupon deals (1 for 1) going on.
We had a table booked for 13pax and was the longest table ever.

Met up with my bestie, Vince @ Orchard and went to Lucky Plaza to take bus 123.
Eventually, bus 123 took like donkey years to come and the free shuttle bus to Great World City came instead so we hopped on to the free shuttle instead.

Walked for another 5mins and reached the Grand Copthorne Waterfront.

Cafe Brio
Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel
392 Havelock Road 169663

Thanks to connections, we have had a 20% discount :)



Some pictures of the buffet line / spread:












The Japanese portion was my favourite with the sushi and my salmon sashimi!!







To top it off, these king prawns are really fresh and delicious.
The moment the chef placed it on the server, it was all gone within 5 minutes.



Lynn babe's cold dishes to start with:



Spicy Prawn Mee:



BBQ / Teppanyaki:





My Sarah Babe & Rahman!



Ending off the post with my bestie Vince :)